$7.00 in my wallet, but that's not the worst of it................the virgin down for the count,,,,,,,,,,,,alone just like the first time around......

Well where do I began, every since Wednesday, I was so pump to get my check, now three days later, it's more like I wish I never even gotten paid, even though that does sound stupid, but, it's true, new hat, tat, food, booze and magazine, now I'm broke. But not as bad as my feelings...................I feel really downnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.....All week long I was so pump about getting paid, I was dancing, counting down the days, but now I feel down, depressed, and cynical......I must avoid Nicole forever...........Today I thought that it was the day, since Last Saturday was a great indication that I can actually do this, but it didn't happen................she was acting like I as a villian, just like everybody else in this world, and I just can't fathom it. i know a lot of it has to do with my vision deformity and I try to compensate for it, but I can't. and nobody has been accepted of it................so that has led me to some really uncomprominising situations...............and a bunch of lonely and frustrating days.....Some days I feel like killing myself............but that wouldn't solve anything..........But what do I do? I'm a nice guy, loyal human being, but that al just gets overshadowed by a visual discrepancy....Maybe if i read about other's people lazyeye problems, it may make me feel better......But.....................no! There not here to comfort me when it happens, which is all the time..........as we speak.....................when i wake up in the morning.............it's mainly my left eye..............thinking now that my chances with Nicole has been swept away by the janitor along with my heart..................I get so caught up in trying to find somebody, not a lot of girls, just 1, and even that seems impossible for me............... and I blame it on the two evils on each side of my nose....................What am I to do.........it's bad enough I'm socially inept........But to have it this bad wow! I'm in a lose lose lose lose situation, and theirs no getting out of it..........................Well if it is, where is it....................I just want to look like a normal human being with two straight eyes...........But this is ruining my life................It's left me sad, alone and depressed............I have an abundance of tears inside, but right now they just don't wanna come out. Yeah the 21 year old virgin, yeah go ahead and laugh, it isn't on purpose...................but there is a lot of people that our virgins out there..............I mean why is that a huge prioity anyhoo.........I'm just interested in meeting a nice girl, the sex part can wait as long as it can...................But I can't even do that right...................

Payday,trying to kill time, after nicole,(NFL talk) top five mock draft and top ten ladies draft with breakdowns

today is the day thatI've been waiting for, for well I guess you can say two weeks, well maybe just a week, and it's finally here Payday. I can rest and breathe easy now...I got a couple of hours to my other class starts, which is a bummerI wish they we're just back to back. I could be home by now, or better yet going to get my check early.....but no can do, gotta stay here and get my check around three-ish or so. I've been in this lab for the past hour and a half, and I'm just trying to kill time. And the time is ticking slowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwlllly. I wish I had a dollar right about now, at leats to buy some popcorn and two little debbie snacks. Thought about going all the wya hom and coming back, but that just sounded stupid..... How can I write a blog without talkign about Nicole.............Saturday or whatever day
she is at work it's over Me, Her Friday Outback Steakhouse!!!!! Or at leats out ofr drinks! If she's old enough. Well I had to get my little snippet of her in somewhere....................... this is the first time, that I haven't been able to watch the NCAA tournament in almost a decade, how sick am I, pretty sick!! But it was wortrh it in a since.........Basketball gmaes or a $450.00 check uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh no brainer...... sTILL trying to waist as much time as I can. Getting a little impatient...... I haven't wrote anything about sports, since January; when I wrote that piece about Vince Young (who should be pick #1 overall in next month's draft.) But hey the Titans are going to win a couple of Super bowls in about five years. The greatest double threat Quarterback i've seen in forever. This Young Kid is a monster, well I shouldn't call him a kid, since he's as old as I am. But this guy is a beast. Why wouldn't the Texans take him No. 1 David Carr (are you kidding me)! Their comitted to that guy, who is the air apparent to his ownself he's that pothetic... What the Texans need to do is trade out of that top spot, I would shop david Carr around and try get at least a second round pick for him, I would say the Dolphins, but they got my boy Daunte Culpepper, (which automatically puts them in the drivers seat to go and maybe even win the SuperBowl, which is held in Florida next year (helllooooooooo)! As I weas saying I shop that First Pick to move down to the 2nd spot, sounds dumb but yes the 2nd spot , that will aloow the Saints to draft Bush, and they would have an additonal pick, the Texans , maybe in the second round, and then they take Vince Young, and a pretty good offensive lineman in the second round, where all the main talent is found anyhow... But I doubt if that happens now with the signing of David Carr to an extension, and the Saints drafting Drew Brees, where does that leads the top two Quarterbacks, in this year's draft, they both make Alex Smith (1st pick last year) look like a third rounder................... I say Leinart goes to well read my mock draft, will ya, I'm Mel Kiper the third or fourth, Well here it is my mock draft, how it all is going to break down Four weeks from Saturday..................

1.Houston Texans- Reggie Bush (USC) IF i was Gm: Vince Young (Cut that Carr guy)
With the dedication to David Carr, why not draft the best running back and the seocnd best player on the board.......
Stengths: Motherfucker is fast and he'll make you say what a move and juuuuuuuuuuuuuke......
He should come in and help the Texans right away I say from 2 wins a year ago to 2 wins and a half. No kidding if they can get their blocking on key he should cause problems, very versatile, line him up anywhere on the field...... win projection 6 to 7
My only problem is why was Lendale White getting all the carries in the championship game hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm 4&1 anybody.....

2.New Orleans Saints-Mario Williams De: NC State (IF i was Gm: Matt Leinart or Vince Young,or D'brickashaw Ferguson). (would not have signed Brees in the 1st place, 6 year- sixty million, that's the most money ever given to somebody under six feet.
With the signing of overrated Drew Brees their not looking for a Quarterback obviously soooooooooooooooooooo........................ I guess this a logical choice, i don't know too much about Mario Williams, except for he's pretty good on NCAA Football 2006.... I don't think the saints improve at all, i thought they should have just tooken Leinart #2 and build around him, but Brees, i don't think so... Win projection:5 Maybe they should take Ferguson to protect Brees Shoulder, or was that the Jets plan......(for Pennington)

3. Tenessee Titans-Matt Leinart. QB: USC (IF i was Gm: Matt Leinart or Vince Young)
-the offense is ran under Norm Chow(former offensive coordinator for the Trojans) Two national Championships and a Heisman Trophy Late Helllllllllllllo
I like this move either way, they can help develop either one of them into great Quaterbacks, they'll learn under a warrior and a true leader Steve Mcnair....... Win Projection: 9 or 10

4. New York Jets-Vince Young QB:Texas (If I was Gm: Vince Young)
This is another no brainer,are you kidding me, if they take D'brickashaw Ferguson over Vince Young or Matt Leinart, they will have to cancel the rest of the NFL draft, because Jet fans will tear up the place..... The Jets should be thanking their local God for this one, One of the top 2 Quarterbacks has fallen right into their Lap...I don't want to hera anything else about Chad Oh my shoulder, I can't throw the ball more than twenty yards Pennington). If they take any of my boys, and with a healthy Curtis Martin; Win Projection 10.

5. Green Bay Packers- Anybody who wil stay healthy all year long. No j/k
A.J Hawk LB-The Ohio State (which I think will be a better pro than MarioWilliams) I've seen this guy play all last year and this guy is a beast, He single handedly killed Brady Quinn, he made Vince Young turn into a one-dimensional player that game..... The guy is everywhere on the field and he look like he belongs in a Green Bay uniform. If they can stay healthy for a whole year, and Brett Farve doesn't play 500 with the other team, the packers easily win the division. Minnesota made a huge mistake by not keeping Culpepper, and the Bears sign Brian Griese (lol) The lions ohhh who can forget about those over their as long as they have Matt Millen and Joey harrington, everyteam on their Calendar should mark down a W. Josh MCcown are u kidding me!

Well i was going to do all ten but i'm running out of time, and just to think I had all the time in the world to kill Oh let's say uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh 2hours and 40 minutes ago....

Now it's time for the 1st ever N.F.L (National Female Draft) with their natural playing positons

10th pick: Mariska Hargitay-strong safety
9th pick: Marcia Cross-wide reciever
8th pick:Teri Hatcher-wide reciever
7th pick: Sharon Stone-long snapper
6th pick:Barbara Walters: positon undisclosed(run on the field and grab the kicking tee in a tank top)
5th pick: Ellen Degeneres: Linebacker
4th pick: Halle Berry: any positon she wants to play
3rd pick: Eva Longoria: running back
2nd pick: Vida Guerra: Center: what other postion (their would be so many false starts)
1st pick: Katie Couric: Kicker: no brainer: what other positon would you like to see her...........I mean just look at those legs...................


5th pick

$170.00 tattoo, new class, doing more work than what their paying me, working on my game,(should have sealed the deal Saturday....

Friday is the day of the tattoo, and I've decided that it's the right thing to do. $170.oo is a steep price, but I thik it'll look good, not as good as nicole but..................................That's hard for anybody to look that hott. Saturday was the day I should have sealed the deal. I went back and I saw her go towards the back and I saw a great opportunity to ask her out and/or ask her for her phone number. We we're walking and talking at the same time for about 4 minutes , conversation was I thought fantastic and fairly easy. But i couldn't seem to get those magic 5 words (can I call u sometime) or the other magic 5 (you wanna hang out sometime). I know she wanted me to ask, but I'm a coward, well i couldn't be too much of a coward if I was the one who approached her first. Well that part is behind me, now I must seal the deal................... But who knows what will happen on Thursday if she's there or the next time I see her...................I have to seal the deal and put all this frustration and thinking too much behind me................ so I must be smooth. she has to be their Saturday, that way I can show off my new tattoo, what girl can resist Tattoos? Right? I don't know though, it's up in the air....... But then theirs this other girl, that i have a interest in well sort of, she seems pretty nice..... I'm just keeeping my options open, since i'm looking, but that use to be it, now it's more verbal than it use to be.......... hopefully I develop the other skills....................If I start dating soon, my virginity should be gone by August at least.......... I'm glad today is my day off, I couldn't handle another day at work......It would be cool if we had reliable workers, then I wouldn't mind working everyday, The money is pretty good, so good that I don't know what to do with it. I'm so lucky, that I don't have any bills or any kids that I have to compensate for, my whole check is basically mine. I can go out and blow $170.00 for a tattoo without thinking twice. When my friends and c0-workers have friends and rent due and that'spmething that I don't even have to worry about.....Hopefully for a while.....chow chow folks

tomorrow is do or die:Nicole or No dice, 2nd tattoo. What dog to actually buy? how do i not let my lazyeye(s) Be a problem. And where to take Nicole

I really don't know where to start with this one, uhhhhhhhhhhhh i punk'd out again, but this time she looked busy. And her peeps we're up there. so yeah Ilucked out. Everytime I went up there. I tried to avoid her, like all crushes do. Avoid the newest object of your affection. Hott is she................................I'm a good looking guy, she's a good looking girl, what sems to be the problem, oh yeah I have a lazyey, two of them! If I just had one it would be a no brainer. "Hey Nicole would you like to go see a movie. Then I would sit on the side with the good eye. But I'm really leaning towards. Asking her out ofr drinks, but I don't even think she''s old enough. If she was a cashier it would be easier. Tomorrow is judgement day I believe it. I got to go up there and swing the bat, it's either a homerun (Wicked Hard)!!!! or a Foul Ball (ehhhh) So I have to do something... And that is it. It's either a yes or no answer......how could that be so hard. Probably because uhhhhhhhhhhhhh I've never done it before, and that could be a problem. "Hey you wanna hang out sometime....... or how about you wanna go out sometime. First I'll engage in conversation about school, then if the conversation is good. Everything should ride smoooothly. amd that's when I basically blabber it out. Let's hang out. I really like her. She seems like a nice person, when I spoke to her the first time. but I haven't thought about where to take her if she says yes!!!! And if she does wow, there goes my bank account. i have to give this a shot. this will be a great post in my blog. If the date goes bad, which I'm inclined to keep it interesting. If it does go well, I'll be already ready to cut the wedding cake. i'm like a woman, when it comes to those kind of things. I don't plan to be a player when I finalluy get this dating thing figured. i'm a one woman man. I may look and fantasize, but that's about it. The only women that I would cheat with our Jennifer Granholm, Hilary Clinton and Katie Couric. Well will write more about that tomorrow. She may be there. Monday is tattoo day, well supposebly. $120.00. I don't know though. But it would look cool on my arm I guess.
I'm thinking about just clearing my whole account out. For a new hat and white shoes, Which the price will be an estimated $70.00