complete love post.......................................................................two sides to the story I mean blog...........................

Well after all these years of crying and whining and writng it all down in my beloved journals and blogs about how I can't find a girlfriend........................I finally woke up and found out I'm pretty good where I'm at now...............All these years of being shy and so extroverted...................and finaly being able to say what I feel directly on the spot with no strings attached...............To girls..................to anybody...............I don't know what woke me up, but i just figured, hey, their human too and there not intimidating by any means of the imagination. But after hearing all these sob stories my friend and fellow co-worker was talking baout yesterday....and how he felt so miserable...........................I said to myself damn..........................I have it pretty good then...............I'm not broke.................I ddon't have that person following my every move.............so what's the point of having a relationship with somebody..................I'm now just strictly looking for sex............................Seeing people together just makes me indifferent.......when it use to make me jealous...............Now I look at the situation like their teh insecure ones.................their the ones that need that special someone or whtaever the fuck you call it by there side................I'm sorry I can't have anybody breathing down my neck........... all over me in public like that..............to me that's real stupid...............and chatty.................Oh I love u baby Oh this and oh that..................Then Bam! here comes the baby..............then there go your bread......................in which you probably already wasting on that whore you're with anyway................I just couldn't be up on somebody like that.....................Bitch get the fuck off me..........Goto aisle fuev and get the fig newtons and meet me in the electronic department......................I mean if I'm at school and work 4 out of five days out of the week.......that doesn't leave me naytime to play video games or go play hoop..................do you think i'l possibly pass up on that to hang with a bitch...................whose only going to give me staisfaction for about 5 to 10 minutes...............when you can play hoop and video games for hours at a time.............................I'll get way more satisfaction out of that than anything....................rigth now at this moment I'm happy..................Because I got money in the bank, money in my wallet and..................I got poeple around me that really really love me.......................my family......................and nobody absolutely nobody is gonna love me or bring me more happiness than they are..................................If i do meet somebody that'll be great.......................wow! But I want act like it's the best thing in the world and be on her pubic hairs......................if it's not shaven..........24/7..................That's when you lose.............time as well as money......................Don't get me wrong I love girls to death.......but I'm not going to stress myself out abbout it..........like my friends do................that was in the past.........................When I was insecure and my self-esteem was at a all time low......................but now I'm able to see the big picture........................

Cont'd Blog: Karissa, Karissa, Karissa, Karissa.......................Well this is in fact one of the broads that look like girlfriend material.....................It's something about her that puts me in a pleasurable state of mind.............just like Katie Couric..............when you see her you just have to smile and grab a whole of your pants....................form all the excitement and energy that 's there when she enters the room................She's that hott...........................welll I wouldn't necesarily say hott but cute...........but her aura is hott..........................I know I sound like a hypocrite now...........from all that stuff I wrote earlier at the top of my blog.............but some girls............you just kind of wish you had for at least 4 to 6 months................some you just wish you had for 4 to 6 minutes.....in my case 3..............I'm a quicker upper...............But my way progress is being made...................as long as I keep up with my flirtatious remarks and good conversation everythng should me cool..........................But I just wonder what everybody's reaction would be if they saw me and her holding hands?.......................The managers would cut my hours.................my friends would probably be indifferent.........except for Lewonn.............who doesn't think I can land her...............my black female co-workers........would probably turn there noses and say something negative..................customers would look at us with a repulse look on their face..........................That's something I'll let linger for a while I'll kiss her in the aisle way..................kiss her as I'm leaving to go outside and push carts...........may even smack her on the ass...................just to make them even more angry............that's one of my joys, making people angry...................................But I know this is harsh to say.................but I like white females better than my own.......................they just act differently...................they don't act lie the world owes them something......................and their not as more accepting and appreciative as white females are...................And that's why there is a absolutley graet chance that'll I'lll never ever date one..............unless they have a better head on their shoulders..................or n tehir mid to late thirties or fourties........................(Jaqueline call me!)