What we did Communciation class, wrong and wierd assumptions and what the hell am I going to do with myself.....

Just got out of Communication class couple of minutes ago, this time an hour early, last week it was an hour& 30 minutes. Probably becuase today we talked and talked and talked and I was too busy looking out the window, and the teacher took notice.......I got put on the spot several times and it wasn't pretty, but I still maintain my focus outside even though a million and one conversations we're going on around me and I wasn't involved in any of them, except for the one earlier which was an assignment, We had to interview one of our classmated and you know me I was mortified, but I also thought that this would be a great chance to interview the asian girl that I wrote about last week, but no dice, I wined up interviewing the girl next to me Syrita was her name and girls are her game, yeah she's a lesbian. But that's not the assumption that I assumed wrong, I'll get to that later. Back to Syrita, other than she was a lesbian I learned that her Favorite Food was macaroni and cheese, she liked Shania Twain, she even liked her so much that she named her daughter after her and she likes the L-word and she's 26 and also she's engaged to be married, and her favorite hangout is club traingle. All these qualities are good ii guess, but she's not very attractive, I know that's a mean thing to say, but she isn't her lips are all crusty her face isn't up to par and she's just well eh. I she had a pretty face I would be humping her leg already. The interview was okay but to read it in front of the entire class was a nightmare, even though I tought I did extremely well, I didn't slip up on a word or anything, but just to see all those eyes on me made my skin crawl. Then she read about me and I was as equally as nervous too, I think she read every detail I gave her from my favorite show being the L-word from me giving everybody wings. I was really eager to see what the asian girl was like(Becca, I found out her name was through her interviewer). And she was fairly impressive she's a triple major, yeah you heard right a TRIPLE MAJOR! She's 23 yrs old, she lives in Fenton, teaches at an elementary school. I found hers to be the most astounding one, she has it all the brains, the looks, the cash(she lives in fenton)! The only thing I didn't like was that she 's spoken for, soem asshole name Kung Pao. I wasn't angry, just a little sad that I didn't get to interview her and learn a little more about her, I woulda asked tons of more questions, yeah I was taht interested, but my 2 lazyeyes would have been a distraction as they always are, but she's crosseyed so................... She would have probably would have been just as cosmetically conscious as I was, which would have equaled each other out. Ya see no pressure, I know where she is rigt now she's in the Curtice Mott building reading at the same spot she was last tuesday, maybe I can go ask her a question about the assigment coming up. which will take more courage than I actually have right now, but I know I have to grow some balls sooner or later. My new motto is this though W.W.E.D (What Would Ellen Do). Since she's one of my idols, i gotta figure out what would she do in my situation, i've seen the women Ellen has picked up and they have been some hotties, but how does she do it, does she use her sense of humor or her charm? Look at her current mistress Potia De Rossi and she's breathtaking a definite 8.5 on a scale of 1 to ten. But Conifdence has a lot to do wth it, it's something that I lack when it comes to certain things and it's the eyes to, I can't leave that out, that's the huge x-factor, that is holdign me back from building friendships and relationships with girls. it's a social killer and it has stouted my social development. Because I'm a friendly person that's likes other people and like to listen to what they have to say, but in class I sit way in the back and look out the window, with all these conversations going on, without saying a peep. I know other people's perception of me is that they think that I'm too good for them, but that's not the case, it really isn't. My next eye appointment isn't until 2 months from tommorrow and I gotta give Doc the Details and he better do something about this quick and yeah quick.