No friends, No Girlfriend, All my fault?

this is probably one of the softest post I've ever written, but bear with me here. This just in....... I'm lonely, I hate having to admit that but it's true. It sucks, every Friday and Saturday night it's the same thing, playing video games, blasting A.F.I in the radio. It's like a ongoing dream that never changes. I guess you can say it's my fault that I take the Cynical Perspective on everything in life. I don't know what I do wrong, maybe I just rub people the wrong way. Maybe I should give people a chance, because everytime I meet somebody I always automatically have a negative comment toward that person, or make a joke about that person and just laugh myself to death, which I know is not right. I've notice that I'm laughing, but I've also notice that it's by myself. I bascially don't know what it is, I don't think I'm better than anybody else, I do feel a little optimistic on rather they'll like me or not, i'm a easy person to get along with, it's just............................... I just think this is the easier road to take, block everybody out and be their for my ownself. To fill that laughing void, that person to talk to other than your parents void. In all 3 of my classes, people are taking them with their friends, I know more than 98% of them are, I'm apart of that other 2%.

My eyes have a lot to do with it to, their just awful and it's terrible to deal with, my right eye is pretty much dead, it just sits at the edge of my eye and doesn't move, my left eye is getting just as bad. It really bothers me, how long can i actually go one with this.