Something that I didn't see coming, and where that leaves me, ripping the school off once more and thoughts to chuck with...........

Yesterday,I heard something that I never thought I'd hear in the same sentence, Valarie (my sister) and pregnant. I was in shock and stilll am in shock that she is, I thought that she would wait until marriage to start a family but I guess stuff happens, she's old enough (25). And I guess mature enough. So now their at a trifecta all 3 of my sisters will have kids effective around December or January. So that leaves me and my virginity, gee I feel so glad I'm waiting, til I find the right vagina,hopefullt it'll be smooth and rough on the edges(lol) probably because the opportunity hasn't presented itself. I don't know what I would do if I was in her shoes, I don't know if I'd be excited or angry, indifferent? just don't know. But i don't have to worry beacuse it's not me. and now this has happen, I wonder what's going to happen to me, Look at em I'm a loser, all my sisters have got kids and I haven't even hit 1st base, pothetic or preserved. Once December or January comes her life will change dramatically, and that'll mean no more catching the bus going to the mall or meijers, her life will be focus on the baby. Mine will be focus on......................getting myself in postion to go make babies(lol). If I do have one I know that it'll be by somebody financailly settled or parents are(lol) So a white girl might be in the cards. Hopefully I get a Royal Flush. But the side effect of that willl be me dropping out of college and putting my education/journalism degree on a serious hold, and i don't see that in my future right now. Most of my friends are either highschool dropouts, they got a girl pregnant or both, and some went to the armed services. So where does that leave me at a communtiy college, no job, no car, no girlfriend, just a bunch of videgames and a bunch of animals and I couldn't be more happy, well except for the girlfriend part, because I am officially looking and any of you chicks want a pretty boy with a lazyeye holla well i g2g holla