not looking foward to Christmas, dodging a huge bullet and looking for love.....................

Well Christmas is in three days and I'm really not looking foward to it, this being for the 1st time since I can remember. But it's just a day that will pass and it'll be forgotten. But I did have $220.00 well about $190.00 if you count the "Brenda Tax Factor" And I basically have nothing to show for the money I spent. I bought a hat and a football game. And the rest I bought food, booze and more food. So............. but January 1st is coming up and that's when I get my allowance. Looking foward to that definitely. this time i will be more careful how I spend it. Right now I have $1.85 in my pocket and I plan on spending that today. I did buy some much needed khakis. So not all was lost in my Christmas money. But i wish she would have gave it to me on Christmas Day or Christmas EVE. But I'm cool though. It's kind of wierd that not even 4 months ago that I had 5 animals count them FiVE! Tuxedo, Garfield, Tony,Kaylop and Chyna. Now it's just Chyna and not is all right. They gave me the only since of friendship I had outside of my family. And I'm coping well but not all the way there though. I think about them a lot. I wish Garfield and Tuxedo was here at least. The lost of Kaylop was a huge blow to me; i miss him dearly. I had that dog for more than decade and it's painful. I'll give my left arm to have him back. Not my right of obvious reasons