year in review, 2006 top 5 goals, feeling awful, espn keeps going down and girlfriend smirlfriend.

Right now I feel awful, no not becuase of the way the New Orleans Saints played yesterday. (oooh that was brutal) I blame them for part of the reason that I'm sicki. I think it's the stomach flu but really not sure. This year wasn't much different than last year. But I think i lost more than I gain. I lost my two dogs and I lost a shot at possible love. (I know taht sounds corny but....) She knows who she is.... And I'm currently losing vision everyday. My right eye seems like it's been hit by a cloud and decided to stay there. Last year I didn't cry at all, but i occasionally found myself crying mutiple times this year. No not becasue I saw my first vagina up close and personal;I'll get to that in the minute. But yeah I cried after my mom threw away my doggies and when I laughed so hard at the jokes I told to myself regarding other people. the best ones we're the racist ones and when I compared girls to athletes. Example: (That bitch look like Roger Clemens after giving up a homerun). I think that's funny stuff. That's basically how I got by this year with the lack of social opportunties. By making jokes about other people, watching T.V and playing video games. This year though I've learned to be comfortable in my own skin. Despite what people say about my vision abnormality or what I like to call it the cosmettic factor. It's played a huge role iin my life and not for the good. my next appointment is in April, so i got about a good 3 and a half months. Friends to me don't matter anyway; people either accept me or they don't. If they can't look past it, that's fine with me. it's stilll gonna be there regardless Well during today's daily yahoo research I searched around for my boy Steve Berthiaume beacuse I haven't seen him on Sportscenter in almost a month. It turns out to eb that he's leaving Sportscenter to host soem sports show in New York. That killed me. The best anchor on Espn is leaving for some other gig. Espn will never be the same again. He was a riot on ESPN with his catchphrases such as "WICKED FAR" Kicksave and a Beauty I said a kicksave and a beauty. And who can forget the best one, the one sometimnes I styaed up all night to here twice maybe three times in a row. Those magic two letters . "EH". Everytime I heard it I would laugh so hard til tears came out of my eyes. I have no idea whyI though it was so funny. But it just was.I think Espn should put the show on their network. To many good anchors are leaving Sportscenter. Keith Russell, Danyelle Seargant now my boy Steve Berthiuame. I knew it was coming though, he was the most talented anchor on that show. I remember watching Steve Berthiaume and Neil Everett on Friday and Saturday nights and they we're spectacular. Now ity's a pretty much distant memory. in less than three weeks the year 2006 will be here. What will it bring? Hopefully money, good grades, vaginas, liitle doggies and little dissapointments; just a little room for error. I have lots of goals but I'll just name the most important. 1. Get a Job (since I'm going to have a lot of free time after school)! 2. Get my eyes fixed, (this is probably a long shot! 3.Buy a dog(so I can have that sense of friendship.) 4.Buy an MP3 player. and 5.... Get the hell out of here!. Yeah that's my main goal. A new change of scenery. Before I leave I want to talk about a certain thing that has benn plauging me for years. A lot of peole already know that I'm not the social juggernaut that most people seem to be. But I think that I have made substantial progress in years past. I think that communication clas has helped me tremendously. I remember when I was in high school I couldn't talk to the opposite sex at all I was like a statue with a 24-7 erection. But now it seems easy, I can talk to anybody, but now that my social consciousness is out of the way, something else has plagued me,. And yes I'm talking about my lazeyes. Their severely lazy without question. It's really frustrating, it's like you're a football player returning form a rehab knee, you feel great about yourself. Then one the first week in the league you tear your rotator cuff. Even though I'd rather have a broken shoulder than a lazyeye. Because having such an overwhelming vision discrepancy is frustrating. Then when people judge you, base on that alone it outs you in a cynical state of mind. But I've learned to deal with it the only way I can. People are always stressing out (especially around my house) about having a girlfriend. But i really don't see a lot of importance in that; okay it's good for one thing sex. I don't think a person like myself was ever menat to be in a relationship, I'm more of a person that likes do things solo. It'll be great to have one, I guess, but if it doesn't occur this year. I really don't care. All I'm looking for is sex anyway. But if it does happen that's fine. If it doesn't I'm not going to die. Of hornyigitis. (of the penis ofcourse), to tell you the truth if they gave me two options a yorkie or a girlfriend, I would pick the dog. seriously. I'm not the kind of person that likes to hold hands in the mall and sniff somebody's ass all day. I rather go solo. But if the opportunity comes up I'm open and so are her? (LOL). I think that wraps up my time here. In the memory of my boy Steve Berthiuame ( SAY HELLO TO MY LITTLE BLOG) (WICKED FAR!)